Day 30!! The Finish!! Now what!?
*Originally posted May 19, 2016
I DID IT! I’m done! And today felt great! I took the 10am class with Laura an awesome teacher and yogi who graciously played photographer for me through out the 30 Day Challenge. She’s knew that I was doing the challenge and blogging about it so it was really nice to have her as my teacher on the last day. Guess what? On my last day of the 30 Day Bikram Challenge I had another break though! I touched my forehead to the knee in Standing-Head-to-Knee AND THEN without falling out came out of the posture with control! Result! I don’t think I’ve done that for…seven years? Six? It’s been a while. We tried to film me doing it after class but my then I was a bit shaky and kept falling. But I did it once. So now I know I can do it again. All and all it was a good last class. Laura who’s also a yoga competitor stayed after and helped me with back beds as well. I told her at one point I could do full camel and she showed me a wall exercise to help deepen my back bend. By the third try I was surprised how far could go back. It inspired me to try for full camel again. Looking at the photo it’s not as far away as I thought it was.
As far as what’s next for my yoga practice, to be honest I don’t know for sure. I know that for a few years my relationship with Bikram Yoga has been tenuous. It has nothing to do with any drama in the actual community. I had started practicing Bikram when I was 18 years old. I became a teacher when I was 23. I’m now 30. Somewhere in that journey I had stopped taking yoga because I loved it. I was just there out of obligation. Then when I moved to London I pretty much stopped taking regularly and started doing other forms of exercise. My body started to miss yoga before my mind or heart did. (Yes, that sentence does sound hippy dippy. Fucking accept it. It’s the truth.) I think the reason I started this challenge was ego. I was upset I couldn’t do simple postures and I wanted that mobility back. 30 Days later I have back the mobility I wanted and I also have something better. I love yoga again. I don’t feel like I have to go back. But I want to.
Aside from postures getting stronger, I also feel better. I’ve been waking up earlier and, over all, have had more energy through. This challenge I haven’t focused too much on food but have been making better choices for myself regardless. I haven’t taken the After pictures yet to see if my body has changed, but when I look in the mirror, I’m happy with what I see. Which is good because 30 classes in 30 days is 2,700 minutes of looking at myself in the mirror. If I haven’t changed physically, at the very least I like what I’m looking at.
In January when I did the food challenge at the end I had all these plans of how and what I was going to do next. This time around I’m not going to set such grand ideas for myself. I know I’m not going to take yoga tomorrow. I know I will be teaching the 9am class at Bikram Yoga Highbury & Islingtonon Sunday. I know I want to have Bikram Yoga back in my life on a consistent basis. Other than that, who knows. I’m just going to take a deep breath look forward and approach the coming weeks with no expectations.
*PS: Thank you again Laura McDonald for being my yoga photographer this past month. If you’re looking for some yoga inspiration may I suggest you follow her Insagram; @postcardsfromlaurasville. Also, come take her class with me sometime. We’ll have a lot of sweaty fun.