*Originally posted April 29, 2016
Today was a real treat because my buddy Nai took class with me. Often, people will ask me to take yoga with them and I’m happy to because taking yoga with friends is more fun than taking yoga alone. When I say, “Great I usually take at Highbury and Islington and this is when I usually take!” People will respond with, “Oh, no I meant regular yoga. I’m not ready for hot yoga.” First off, no. I’m doing a Hot Yoga Challenge so I’m not coming to you YMCA Hatha Flow or whatever it is you do. Secondly, yes you are ready. Bikram Yoga is a beginning series class. I’ve seen some pretty out of shape people fearlessly go for it and they got good because they weren’t waiting to be “ready”. So take the plunge come to Bikram with me!
But Nai, wonderful Nai, hopped in without of problem. She had done Bikram years ago and has wanted to get back into it. It was great practicing next to someone I know. It makes the hard parts easier when you’re in it with someone. Afterwards we talked a bit about what are practices were and what they are now. How postures that used to be our favorite now hurt like hell. For both of us that pose is Standing Bow Pulling Pose. It was, and continues to be, my favorite posture. Although mine is not what it used to be.
That’s been the most frustrating part about coming back it’s not that my postures are bad per-say, but they used to be better. And I keep comparing myself to my past practice. Any yoga teacher (including me) will say that you shouldn’t compare your yoga practice to anyone’s. Don’t even compare it to your past self. Yoga is about being in the now and dealing with what is given to you, or what you have in the present moment. So, every day I’m in class, I take a deep breath, remind myself not to judge my practice and to work hard no matter what. Then I think “Nah, I want my old Bow Pose back.” And kill myself for 90 minutes trying to get it.
I don’t know how to approach setting goals along with having no expectations for my practice. Maybe I’ll learn that in the next 20 days…or maybe I’ll just get better at Bow.